Addiction & Strength

So I’ve struggled with a number of addictions in my life, and still struggle today. How we overcome addiction, however, gives us strength. As a truck driver, some of my addictions are fed unless I turn to God to overcome.

If you watch the short video below, you’ll see a very close call I had on the highway recently.

If you look at the speed at the bottom right you’ll see that I was driving at 105km/hr (63mph) and rapidly decelerated to 43km/hr (25mph) in a very short space to avoid the accident. As this was occurring, the first word out of my mouth was a certain FOUR LETTER WORD that I have removed from my vocabulary, but obviously it remains in memory. I immediately regretted the use of the word and I’m glad that I have the volume of my dashcam set to zero.

I spent many years addicted to swearing and being a truck driver I’m exposed to people every day who swear without thinking as I used to do. I’ve committed to not swearing because, aside from the obvious of it being objectionable, it also is unnecessary. Most emotions can be expressed without resorting to profanity. I try to express my emotions by using words that are acceptable everywhere, including church!

Another addiction I struggled with for most of my life was smoking! I really don’t remember when I had my first cigarette, but it was when I was very young, probably about 11 or 12! I began to smoke regularly at about age 14 and didn’t quit completely until 2011 at the ripe old age of 47 years old. The damage I did to my body was definitely taking its toll as I was often out of breath even doing the most simple tasks.

I’d tried to quit smoking many times in the past, but always went back, but this time I was serious! I talked to a doctor and got a prescription for a “helper” drug and never looked back. I can honestly say that my smoking addiction is completely gone. I feel better, healthier, and my wallet is a little heavier.


Everywhere you look in society today, you see people on smartphones.  Nowhere is safe from these devices, from restaurants, stores, vehicles, doctors offices, elevators, they are everywhere. Sadly, there was even a survey that found that 20% of people would answer their phone during sex! If that isn’t an addiction, then I don’t know what is.

I admit to owning a smartphone, an iPhone 8 Plus, that I started using in November 2017.  After years of owning a basic flip-phone, moving up to a device that has more computing power than Apollo 11 (the first moon landing for the younger ones), is quite daunting.  I can use my phone for all sorts of things that people only dreamed about in the past, but I don’t think I am addicted.  Actually in some ways, my phone scares me because it knows where I am going before I do, and seems to know my thoughts when I am looking for something, but answering it during an intimate moment is far beyond anything I’d ever consider!

I’ve seen people sitting next to each other in public, not having a verbal conversation, but actually texting each other. When you have lost the ability to communicate face to face, then things have gone too far! While these devices may seem to be a great advantage in modern society, they have their down sides, and must be used in moderation, and turned off when necessary.

[As a side note, while I am not 100% behind the proliferation of smart phones, this blog post was composed largely on my iPhone.]

But if you want to talk about addiction, that many people, including myself, struggle with its PORNOGRAPHY! Porn is the biggest industry in the internet and it is ruining lives everywhere around the world! If you can imagine it, you can find it on the internet!! I will not go into details, but as I struggled, and still struggle, with the pornography addiction, I’ve seen it all. Most of it I really didn’t need to see, but an addiction needs to be fed in many ways!!

Obviously the companies that produce and distribute pornographers know what they’re doing because they are extremely successful. There are more porn sites on the internet than anything else. Anyone who has an email address has received an invitation to join or watch porn. It is EVERYWHERE!

As I said, I still struggle with this one, and being on the road by myself doesn’t help. I’m working through this and asking God for strength every day. By putting this out there, I’m hoping that, by admitting my weakness, I can gain strength. I’m hoping to put my downtime to better and more productive use.

Now that I’ve opened up and shared another weakness, hopefully you can accept that no matter what your addiction is, with God’s strength, you can overcome it! I ask for your prayers as I work through my issues again. Hopefully this too can be beaten.

I’m now going to make a special appeal.  If you or a family member suffers from mental health issues and you’d like to share your story (anonymously), please use the form below.  All information will be kept confidential and will not be shared with anyone. My goal is to set up a resource for people who are reaching out for help.  You can be part of the solution and maybe save a life.


1 Comment

  1. It takes a brave man to acknowledge his sins, which do not necessarily have to be in public, and more, to want the healing power of Jesus’ blood to help overcome them. I also fell victim to porn in many of its evil forms and believe it’s one of the most difficult forms of sin to beat. But it can be done through the Saviour “for without me you can do nothing.” You certainly have my prayers, please pray for me as well.


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